Thursday, January 5, 2012

I have found myself in a state of sadness and loss of direction.  Before I left Utah I was feeling like I was getting into a groove of stay at home mom, serving at my church, cooking dinner every night and loving on my husband and son.  Since we have moved here I have come up with several proactive plans of meeting people, getting involved and enjoying this season of transition and as much as I hate to admit it, all of my plans have failed. 

My biggest struggle right now is William.  He is angry and I think rightfully so.  In the matter of a couple of weeks we turned his life upside down.  We took him from family, friends, best friend Max, school, church family, big roomy house, and an awesome yard to play in.  Through this whole moving process we have continued to encourage each other, assure and reassure each other that things are fine and are going to be fine and as long as we are together we will be okay.  And as much as all of that is true its just a way to cover up our real feelings and not deal with them. 

The truth is I am not fine.  I am sad and lonely.  William is angry and grieving for all he has lost.  Jeff really likes it here, is enjoying his job and excelling at it.  But I know he has to cap that excitement because William and I do not share in it.  The Boswell3 are a mess and now that I have acknowledged that, I pray that God gives me the wisdom and strength to clean it up.

I do not have a clean meal for you today and I hope that I can get back to clean eating soon.  I do have a easy crock pot chicken recipe to share with you and a request for prayer.  Pray for the Boswell3 to get through this season, learn to really love on each other, be understanding of each others feelings and to push into God knowing that He will get us through this time.


1 can chicken broth in crock pot, 1 - 2 pounds of boneless skinless chicken breast, sprinkle 1 packet of Italian dressing mix over top.  Cook on low for 6 hours (depending on crock pot).

Until Next Time....
So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. Matthew 6:34